Someday

One Saturday afternoon, contemplating

Wondering how life should be

When all has been decided with some feelings of regrets

But there is no stopping now, and life should go on

I’m scared to death, worried as hell

Leaping without a safety net,

But at times I have look down the pit and should take the risk

To see what’s in there

I wipe my eyes from tears, because I don’t what to roll them down

I don’t want to feel more pain of such bitter drops coming out from me

And I must contain it, I must restrain by break down

Because I don’t want people will see that I faltered somehow

For those who looked up to me, I am feeling sorry

Yet human as I am, I know it is sickening to hear the excuse

That is why I force myself to be brave

Though my fingers are shivering

I looked up from the window but see the dim clouds

Yet I could see the sunlight passing through

Which reminds me not to lose my grip of hope

Because I know life’s brighter side is always there

Don’t get me wrong, I am not praying for easy life

Because I know there are a number of people out there

Who may be feeling worse or less fortunate that I

That’s why I ask for the strength, instead, to get by with this languishing

Now, I should continue to walk though tripping just to move on

And someday when I get there I should look behind reminiscing

With the sweetest smile and glimmering eyes

With this course of survival in this life of mine.

Someday, I will be wiser. Someday. 

Francis Antipas Muring 7.7.12